Forever Evolving

Lupe Fiasco - I'm Beaming (Official Music Video) + HD

2010-05-02T09:31:00.000-05:00

to you

2009-09-03T03:11:00.003-05:00

time is suppose to bring growth
suppose to bring wisdom
a smarter self and more realization of self

every night i pray time makes you
a better man
a better son of God

somehow love will find its way in your
realm of what is important
and maybe then i can no longer be misunderstood

By Me.......i think this is something i will always feel....

Untitled

2009-09-03T03:04:00.002-05:00

After everything,
you still ask more of me.

After.....
writing you letters to keep your spirits high and our love in the sky;
forgiving you once after you broke my heart;
trying to give you sunshine even when the rain pours
supporting you through good, bad, ups, and downs
after seeing you in and seeing your out
and forgiving you twice after you broke my heart
giving you all of me and more

You still ask more of me?

Instead of giving you me, I will give you you.

By Me.....(longtime ago----diff state of mind but decided to put up)

Be My....

2009-09-03T02:55:00.003-05:00

Be My.....

My Honey, My Love
I love you-----yes that I do
But let me tell you what I need you to be

I need you to be my

My protector------guard me from the harms of the world, defend me from those who intend harm, shield me of pain......Just love me.

I need you to be my

Lover------intrigue me, caress me, take my mind to a place its never been, let my body experience pleasure like no other, and my soul----I need you to undress my soul---slowly. Just love me.

I need you to be my

Leader------direct me to eternity; I want to follow your Godly path, command respect, show me how to have an overflow of understanding. Just love me.

My mind, my body, my soul yearns for your love, your protection, and your guidance.

My Honey. My Love. My Man.

By Me....awhile ago (lol)

Marriage.....Ugh!!! (in a good way)

2009-09-03T02:15:00.003-05:00

How do you know when you are ready to marry?.....This is what one of my pastors told me....

you are ready when.....

you have a silhouette in your mind of the kind of man/woman you will choose to marry and when you have resolve in your mind you will not settle for less
when you do not have to compromise any aspect of your relationship with God in order to be with the person to whom you are attracted
when you are willing to be single rather than make a bad choice of a husband or a wife
when you are becoming the person that your ideal mate is praying about meeting

What ya think????

CHARACTER ATTRACTION

2009-09-03T02:15:00.002-05:00

choosing on character attraction-------Genesis 24: 3-14

to be of family
willing to act on faith
revealed by an angel
had a servent's heart

PURITY IS GOD'S CHARACTER TEST!!!

God wants us to be like Him. (I Peter 1:13-19)------self-control, grace, do not conform to evil desires---be Holy.
Evidence of purity
Character refers to things that have been etched so deeply into a person's soul that they are lasting marks, not easily changed
Character is manifested in holiness.

HOW TO DISCERN GOOD CHARACTER?

Look at the following:

behavior in stressful situations
reputation with others
obedient to authority

Infatuation v. Love

2009-09-03T02:05:00.002-05:00

Infatuation: expression of excessive admiration---foolish

Love: Time and Maturity

"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life." -Proverbs 4:23

INFATUATION

highly emotional

idealistic

based on a feeling

weakened by separation

seeking to fnd happiness

focusing on external looks

seeking to get

possessive

in love with "emotion"

LOVE

gradual

faithfully consistent

realistic

based on a commitment

strengthened by separation

seeking to give happiness

focusing on internal character

seeking to give

freeing

in love with "devotion"

ATTRACTION II

2009-09-03T02:02:00.002-05:00

Attraction: a feature or characteristic that allures you to someone

Physical attraction goes beyond sight; it encompasses all of our senses.

"Pleasing is the fragrance of your perfumes; your name is like perfume poured out."

- Song of Solomon 1:3

ATTRACTION

2009-09-03T01:58:00.002-05:00

a man's man; slightly rugged; witty; down-to-earth, calm; caring, honest, trustworthy;intelligent, ambitious; supportive; pleasing to me and likes to please me; relationship with God; strong; expressive, and affectionate.

Thats what I like!!!

WHAT MATTERS MOST

2009-08-20T03:15:00.003-05:00

"No matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love." - I Corinthians 13:3

Life is all about love.

The most important lesson God wants you to learn on earth is how to love.

Life without love is really worthless.

Busyness is a great enemy of relationships.

"These three things continue forever: faith, hope, and love. And the greatest of these is love."

- I Corinthians 13:13

"The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love" - Galatians 5:6

The Best Expression of Love is Time

When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you will never get back.

Words alone are worthless.

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2009-08-05T12:35:00.001-05:00

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My Top Ten---Sexiest Men Ever!

2009-07-28T12:37:00.014-05:00

I decided to list my top ten celebrity men that I love!! I will give the rankings now....and then I will you information about each one daily!

10. Kanye West

9. Trey Songz

8. Larry Johnson

7. Wentworth Miller

6. Maxwell

5. Kid Cudi

4. Tupac

3. Marion Barber

2. Common

1. Idris Elba

Yummy! Delicious! I cannot even get up from the computer now! Enjoy people!

Maxwell----BLACKsummersnight

2009-07-28T12:17:00.002-05:00

I just wanted to let everyone know that I love Maxwell's new album....been meaning to put that up here.....Been jamming since July 7th....The musicians on that album are sick....i love the music, they lyrics.....and that Maxwell voice. fabulously done!

Kid Cudi is dope.....

2009-07-28T12:11:00.002-05:00

And yes....kanye and common are hella dope too....They are all so sexy to me~

I LOVE KID CUDI!!

2009-07-28T12:00:00.001-05:00

make me say.....

Quote of the Day

2009-07-10T03:00:00.002-05:00

"Do not indulge your ego at the expense of your soul."

-I Peter 2:11

RESENTMENT :-(

2009-07-10T02:50:00.002-05:00

Ongoing battle in my mind and heart

If someone has hurt you, can you forgive???

I feel as if I can forgive but absolutely CANNOT forget!!

Once you forgive, can you go on and continue a relationship with person?

I definitely think it is possible, but it would be very difficult and I think counseling would be very helpful. I struggle with thoughts of the past always lingering around in my head!!!

In my opinion, I believe anyone who truly loves someone and cares for them, could not repeatedly continue to hurt them and make the same mistakes. Any relationship of such instances, I feel, should be re-evaluated thoroughly.

What I need help with is.......how do you forgive and still not have some sort of resentment toward the person you've forgiven??? HELP!!

One Year Later.....Growth??

2009-07-10T02:41:00.002-05:00

Over a year ago, while reading "Purpose Driven Life", I wrote somethings about my personality that I struggle with. They are as that I am easily angered, my inability to ask for help, worrisome (only in certain aspects of my life), and to learn to follow through with all goals and dreams I set for myself.

I've been thinking alot lately about my growth in my personal life. I definitely think I've grown alot as far as controlling my emotions, but at the same time I didn't have another outlet to express them. I feel like instead of actually controlling them, maybe I just kept them hidden adn used work as an excuse ot a distraction from actually dealing with them or expressing them.

NEW GOAL: start back writing and start painting(again) to help express my emotions

I still find it hard to ask for help from others and I know its because I associate depending on someone else for anything to failure.

I wouldn't say that I am less worrisome, but I have realized there are things I have no control over!

As far as my goals and dreams = still a work in progress!!!

Loving these shoes.....work it Elise!!

2009-06-29T01:42:00.002-05:00

These shoes are hotness!!!

This Dress is the Shizzness!!!!

2009-06-29T01:36:00.003-05:00

Lovin this whole look!!!!

www.balmain.com

Please go to the website.....nothin' but freshness!!!

Beautiful Women Rockin' NATURAL HAIR!!!!

2009-06-27T14:53:00.005-05:00

I am so happy I decided to go natural.....So far I have been natural for seven months....i only get it pressed every 2.5 months when I get it trimmed....I love it! Its stronger and healthier and I feel like its more fitting for me. I think my natural beauty shines even brighter with my hair in its natural state. Anyway, i just wanted to share some pics of gorgeous women rocking natural hair!!! Enjoy!

Every Woman Deserves......

2009-06-27T14:35:00.002-05:00

So the other night I was looking through all my old magazaines.....and I found an article in Glamour mag. from October 2008 and it was titled 20 Things Every Woman Deserves From The Guy In Her Life.

I just wanted to share the ones that I def agree with......

His undivided attention at important moments

Compliments that are actually spoken outloud

Good manners

His utter lust and unwavering devotion to you and your body

Acknowledgement of you relationship to family, friends, and even Facebook (LOL!)

A call--not a text--that actually comes when he said it would

Encouragement

Respect

Love for her and all her quirks!!

I think these are things any woman would want...and I am sure there is plenty more....LoL.....(to each its own)...The Facebook comment had me laughing....I never dated anyone who had a profile on any of those social networks...which is weird since pretty much everyone does....I tend to be attracted to guys who are just laid back and not really into social networks on the internet....even though I am...LOL....opposites attract I guess....However, I have heard many stories about people in relationships fighting over things found on websites like this....so-called internet flirting and what not or just not even recognizing each other on their perspective profiles....honestly, it seems all kiddy to me but then again, I never been in that situation.

Back to the mag, they also listed a few things that you man deserves. Such as...

Your backing and support when he takes a risk

Guilt-free boys night out

Patience when he says the wrong thing

Heads-up when he really needs to listen

Freedom to be himself

I agree with these also.....however, that listening one....Guys, just listen all the time and you won't have to worry!

Love Life. Peace.

Trooper Scuffles With Paramedics

2009-06-23T01:29:00.001-05:00

Trooper Scuffles With Paramedics

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This is a damn shame!!! We all need to stand up to this ignorance.....

Aries Lovers

2009-06-01T01:04:00.002-05:00

Aries Lovers:

"There are no half measures with Aries; they are either right into a relationship or completely uninterested. Impulsive by nature they are super-quick when it comes to falling into sexual lust. They tend to be romantic and need a lover who won't drive them crazy because, when under emotional pressure, Aries can let the rest of their lives fall apart.

To an Aries love and sex is as necessary as drinking and eating and they can become irritable, argumentative and unwell where their sex life slows down. To often the Aries set sights on someone they know is not suitable for them and, while they might relish the resulting drama, they soon become bored as indeed, they also do, with someone who is easy to be around.

Arians are exciting bed mates that are happy to take the lead and, are generally always ready for more. They are turned on by spontaneous and novel sex and, the more outrageous, the better. They tend toward sexy thrills and might have some very kinky fantasies.

The Arian can be impatient and somewhat selfish. Their organism is the number one priority. They like their own space, can be instantly turned off by an over- possessive lover and, upon the withdrawal of sexual favours by a partner, swiftly turn their attention into the arms of another.

Aries erogenous areas centre on the head and face so; light finger attention to lips, cheeks and hair is a sure way to generate an amorous reaction from an Aries partner.
Best Bed Mates for the Arian: Sagittarius, Leo, Aries, Gemini & Aquarius."

Sagittarius Man Aries Woman, Zodiac Love Match, Zodiac Sign Compatibility

2009-06-01T01:01:00.000-05:00

Sagittarius Man Aries Woman, Zodiac Love Match, Zodiac Sign Compatibility:

"This combination of signs forms a temperamental match. Both signs feature wit, drive, impulsiveness and an active pursuit for social activity.
Blissful passion is in store for these two, as long as Aries doesn’t get pushy over the issue of freedom.
They are highly compatible and will have a dynamic relationship.
Both are explorers and the relationship is often torrid and exciting. Care is needed however, since Aries tends to tackle everything in a hands-on manner whereby Sagittarius may take a more philosophical approach to life.
With some understanding between the two, differences are bound to be short-lived, and this could be a match made in heaven."

2009-06-01T00:54:00.000-05:00

The Aries sign is a passionate sign that characterizes some one who is seeking an intensity of relationship that may not be matched by longevity.

She is easily aroused and attracted, but her flames generally tend to burn fiercely only for a short time.

The Aries woman is capable of a long- term commitment but only where her partner is able to generate situations and activities that will constantly stimulate her.

The Aries woman can, over time, accept and recognize the importance of having her fire properly contained, however she will never accept having those flames totally extinguished.
In any relationship the Aries woman will certainly provide direction, creativity, adventure, and sexual stimulation.

The signs of Sagittarius, Leo, and Aquarius are compatible to the Aries woman an, she can also very charmed by Libra. Libra however is not the easiest sign relationship for the Ram since the Scales and the Ram are complete opposites.

Taurus and Virgo can add some practicality and stability to Ms Aries’s life, however in order for this relationship to work, those Taurus and Virgo folk must also posses some fire of adventure themselves.

The most challenging Signs for Ms Aries are probably those of Cancer and Capricorn.

Me---THE ARIES WOMAN

2009-05-31T23:46:00.003-05:00

Slogan: I am, therefore I am.

The Aries woman is governed under her ruling planet of Mars, the god of war and, with the daring and bravado of that sign she is always preparing for or, setting forth into life in the search for new worlds to conquer. She is forever seeking to establish herself as both a separate and absolute individual, and one who has a unique and original perspective on life.

The Aries woman is particularly good when it comes to inspiring others, She is highly motivated person and, with incredible drive and ambition, is not the type of person who will take no for an answer. When she is rejected, she will retreat just long enough in order to regroup her resources to again charge on ahead once more.

The Aries girl is, without doubt, a definite leader, even if only she is only leading herself! As a Ram she is very direct in her approach to life even to the extent that, many people might find her to be somewhat tact less and too confrontational. She is not a patient person when it comes to matters of subtlety or diplomacy and is usually very straightforward and direct in her dealing with the challenges of life.

The greatest weakness of the Aries women is her tendency to be aware only of her own needs, desires, and objectives. She assumes that what is correct for her is also right for everyone else.
The word “compromise” is not a popular phrase within Ms Aries’s vocabulary and this can give her a reputation for being pushy and insensitive.

Irrespective, the Aries woman’s fiery nature tends to warm and excite other people to the extent it inspires in them the dreams of hope and promise for the possibilities of future.

NOTE: I got this off www.thearieswoman.net

Just My Thoughts...: Love Repossessed

2009-05-31T23:46:00.000-05:00

Just My Thoughts...: Love Repossessed

Fuck...

2009-04-21T03:08:00.002-05:00

Life can be pretty fucked up at times
and at times, so fuckin good

Dudes fuck you over, Bitches back stab, but
the dudes always get fucked somehow and I'm down to stab a bitch back!

Just Kidding!

But damn--no one to trust but yourself in this world.......and ya momma(of course)

Dudes wanna fuck around til they 40, so what do I do?

I keep my head to the muthafuckin sky and walk to my own damn beat.........and put my middle finger up and keep it moving...

Dueces Bitches!

Attention!!! Men. Women. All.

2009-04-21T03:02:00.002-05:00

This isn't all negative so just let me spill a few of my thoughts......its been something on my mind for awhile but I am going to keep it short!

Disappointment!!!

Throughout my entire life, the men in my life have consistently continued to bring nothing but disappointment. The crazy thing is that I still have high hopes for meeting a man who would break that trend set by men of weak character.

I DO NOT want a GOOD man-----I WANT A GREAT MAN!!!

I deserve the best. And I am the best. :-)

MEN--be the best in all positions in life.
HUSBAND. FATHER. SON. BROTHER. FRIEND. UNCLE. COUSIN. BOSS. BOYFRIEND. SON OF GOD. GRANDSON. ----EVERYTHING!

And always keep it 100% honest.

Peace and Love. Ash P.

tribute to my lost hat!

2009-04-18T17:51:00.001-05:00

just remembered I lost this hat! upset all over again! Lol! peace. Love Life. Peace.
Miss Ashley Nicole

What Inspires Me?

2009-04-18T15:20:00.001-05:00

Faith. Music. Family. Art. Future. Change. Color. President Barack Obama. First Lady Michell Obama. Fashion. Love. Past. Present. Happiness. The Love of My Life--Jonathan.

Let life inspire me in everyway.

Aries, Aries, Aries....that's me!

2009-04-18T15:17:00.001-05:00

My Daily Horoscope:

If you have high expectations, they’re not likely to be met, on a day where others won’t appear to be as efficient or as capable as you. However, don’t be too harsh over someone’s errors or blunders. Just remember that you have possibly set very high standards!

Your Compatible Sign today for Love: Virgo Friendship: Aquarius

Local Love :-)

2009-04-18T15:08:00.002-05:00

Ready---yes!! On the other hand, I am pretty sure I cannot handle a long distance romantic relationship! Been there, Done that....and I don't want to do it again! LOL! Not really sure thats the kind of relationship that is healthy for me presently in my life.

I love Jamie Foxx!!

2009-04-18T14:59:00.000-05:00

I am Ready for Love......Maybe?

2009-04-18T14:37:00.004-05:00

Five months of being single and I'm ready to finally entertain the idea of possibly starting a new relationship. At first, I was questioning whether I was ready or not? However, with time and thought, I've realized that it is about whether or not I have overcome my fears of falling in love again, of getting my heart broken, and almost every aspect of love itself.

I know that sometimes with ups, comes downs, and with good times, comes disappointments. Its hard to trust for me....especially new people. However, I've decided to not let negative past experiences dictate my future. I've learned that I have to put myself and my goals first and not let anyone alter or change my focus. I think the "right" person will just be added support to me becoming the best person I can be and likewise for me in relation to them. So, in the end, I am ready for a relationship.

Peace Out Homies!!

TRUE FRIEND

2009-02-18T11:05:00.002-06:00

In response to "Just My Thoughts":

You couldn't have been more timely with your post. I had been thinking bout this alot lately. I've always been aware of what the term"friend" means to me and I choose not to use it too loosely.

I have a very small group of "forever" friends. I love them so much and feel like knowing each of them has made me a stronger woman. I look at them as being a part of my family. I don't have to talk or see them on a regular basis! Some I've only seen once or twice a year, if that, due to new jobs, school, and moving! We have each other backs--we talk, we laugh, we email, we cry, we yell--we do everything. No matter what happens, we all know we can trust and depend on one another.

Now what got me thinking about this---was my previous relationship. Not all bad, but definitely now all good (clearly)! I honestly feel that for a romantic relationship to be successful--you both must be good friends--true friends even. I do feel as if a true friendship can grow from within the romantic relationship though. I say this because with all my honest, true friends, I would never want to cause any pain that could be prevented by my actions alone. So after putting it in that perspective, I could never imagine causing any form of heartache to my significant other.

People say, "shit happens". As an adult, I feel like I am mature enough to make sure I don't cause "shit" to happen.

"Shit" = cheating, lying, etc.

I feel like if you see a "forever" friend in your significant other----it would and should be easy to do the right thing.

If you don't see that, then maybe you should be an adult and express that---it's the grown-up things to do!!!

This past weekend was very tough--emotionally(not b/c of V-day)! My late baby brother birthday is today and its very hard. Everyday is hard but this day seems heavier than recent past days. I tend to keep my emotions and feelings inside for a long time before I get them out(probably why its been so long since I've posted anything).

Advice to all:

1) Feel free to express yourself.

2) Do better in all realms of your life.

3) Remember, true love doesn't come around too often.

Happy Birthday To My Baby Brother---My Forever Love

2009-02-18T10:44:00.005-06:00

Love.

Smile.

Happiness.

You.

Speechless.
No words to describe the yearning I have to hold you,
to feel you, to be with you.

My heart pounds---heavy pounding--reflecting the weight of my emotions

My light in the midst of complete darkness.

Jay--I miss you terribly.

My body aches---aches to hear your voice, aches to see you,
aches for you.

My angel on earth is now in heaven and I feel empty without you.

You run freely though my dreams and you bring smiles to my face as I awake.

The memory of you keeps my legs strong enough to lift my feet so I can ----press on.

You give me the wings to fly---and I choose to soar to the highest until I reach you again.

My little man---sissy loves you and know that my heart beats for you because you always will be the love of my life. The one who brings smiles of happiness.

You will always be my Jonathan.

My Baby Boy.

My little man.

Happy Birthday.

I know you're in heaven---happy and peaceful. I have yet to find the right words to express how much I miss you.

My happiest and best times were everyday I was with you. So everyday of my life, I keep you with me...in my heart forever.

02/18/1997-8/10/2007

Love-Big Sissy(Aggy)

In With The New....2009 Baby!

2009-01-07T12:06:00.004-06:00

I am recently single {2months}...and I am unbelievably HAPPY!!! It was not a terrible relationship{it was for 2.5 years so it def wasn't all bad}.....it was more of a growth decision for the both of us. What I wanted, he could not give......and what he wanted, I was not going to give. Don't get me wrong ladies, it was not easy.....it takes time to get over a breakup, especially with someone you truly love. However, I am so in love and inspired by the possibilities of my future, and the entire world. My drive for life has intensified......I see no boundaries. I truly am fearless. It is an overwhelming feeling.

A couple of my friends are having "man issues", and its frustrating to see my close friends down over someone undeserving. All I have to say to this is......stop worrying about a man who has not shown any reason for you to...I am not saying don't care....I am saying to focus on yourself...make yourself a better person.....don't worry yourself to death about someone who hasn't shown love or given you truth or anything else....I've learned that I have to be a little selfish...all women should be! Be strong....try new things...hone your skills....learn new skills...work on becoming the best woman you can be........the right man will appreciate who you are and what you are about.

I am twenty-three years old and I am confident about myself as a woman and what I want in my personal life.....in my career...and for my future. Like everyone, I have things I want to work on.....and things that we always be in-process. I am trying to be a better Christian....better daughter, better sister.....better person all around.

It is important for women all over to encourage each other.....to be motivation someone else. Giving back to the community is all a priority on my list......I will keep you guys updated on that too!

I pray God gives you all STRENGTH to fulfill all your goals and to be the best person you can be.

Stay Blessed.....Stay Driven......and Stay Fresh in 2009!

LOVE

2008-12-20T03:23:00.002-06:00

Speechless. I have been listening to this track, So Beautiful by Musiq, since his album was released on Tuesday.....and if I could put an image and a song to my idea of what love looks like....it would be this. Found this video...whoever put it together, nice job. Perfect. Michelle and Barack giving me hope.....love the Obamas.

So Many Queens....Not So Many Kings

2008-12-13T22:21:00.005-06:00

Love. Relationships. My favorite topics, but I tend to shy away from it because it's simple, it's complex, it makes me smile, it makes me frustrated.....it knocks on every emotion inside me. I've been listening to Musiq's new album and all his old stuff for a few days now and I can no longer not talk about love and relationships. I have questions or thoughts that I want to let out. Here goes....(I apologize if I start to ramble.) And I welcome any feedback.....all opinions are welcome!!

1) When do you know that you are truly in love with someone? I've been in love once and there was nothing special...i just knew that I truly loved him, good or bad, that I cared about what happened in his life and his well being. I truly wanted him to be the best person he could be. I believed in him. It came to the point where I felt like he was no longer deserving and I had to let him go. However, even now, that we are no longer together, I still want the best for him. After being on a roller coaster of happiness, sadness, love, and hurt, I still wish him well. I used to be angry with myself for being this way! I know that it is better this way though.....and much healthier.

2) Can true love fade away? This is an easy one for me! I believe in true love and I think if you truly love someone, you will always love them. You love who they are on the inside and just thinking about that will always bring light in your life.

3) Why do people cheat? I have yet to understand this one...I do understand temptation though. I feel though that as a man or woman, making a committment to someone is a big decision and that it should be one you stand by. The hurt, the pain, and the trust that breaks would be too devasting to me. A part of me believes that if you a real man or a real woman who knows what he or she wants and cares about how they carry themselves, then cheating wouldn't happen. In my opinion, it takes alot of strength and character and faith to not let temptation get the best of you.

Okay.....I don't think I have any more questions....I just wanna discuss, talk, chat......feel me?

I feel that most men that are close to my age are no where near what I want or need in a life long partner. I am twenty three years old and I am honestly done with anything or anyone who embodies B.S.! I want someone who is honest, driven, supportive, thoughtful, real, and confident with who he is. Someone who is not a follower....someone who is okay with standing by himself...someone who makes his own path and knows the importance of family and loved ones. Family(very close friends included) are really what keeps you going when you're at your highest moment and at your lowest moment. I do know that the right one will find me.......but sometimes I am like....when? LOL! I don't want to rush it.......I have things that I am focused on and that I want to accomplish as an individual....I think that two people can come together and accomplish their goals and dreams as an individual and together.

It seems to me, from observation, that guys want to have the cake, the pie, the cookies, the brownies and want to eat all that shit!!! I've heard this before and I've seen it.....but as I get older...it just disgusts me. Maybe because I look at older people and their marriages and I have a high regard for what marriage means and what a husband and wife should be.......so a man that doesn't depict that image or just what a good man should be....i put them in my "supreme whackness" category. Maybe its me.....I am just not into having several random partners or lying....and i hate selfishness....it is they key to any downfall.

I know Queens are out there.......but where are our damn Kings?????

Love Life. Peace.

My Love Language

2008-12-10T05:35:00.002-06:00

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Languages are probably Physical Touch and Quality Time

My Detailed Results:
Physical Touch:	8
Quality Time:	8
Words of Affirmation:	7
Acts of Service:	5
Receiving Gifts:	2

About this quiz

Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

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My Thoughts....

I believe this is very true about me....I feel like quality time is the most important in any relationship. It lets me know that you enjoy being around me....whether we are out or at home. And Physical Touch....I am just a naturally physical person...i love PDA....and being close to the one I love at all times....i like the feeling I get on the inside. :-)

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Still I Rise by Maya Angelou

2008-11-30T23:58:00.003-06:00

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.
Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own back yard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?
Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.

Beyond Measure

2008-11-19T13:25:00.004-06:00

I've learned so much about myself and what I want through my past relationships. I feel as if I've finally been given a flashlight to guide me through this dark tunnel........and I am no longer stuck in that tunnel. It's funny how you can be so blinded when you are in love.....and honestly I am not sure if its true blindness. I think faith has something to do with it also.....in my case, I always have faith in things or people I believe in and I truly love. I do not regret any decisions I made in my past relationships because they have helped form me into the woman I am today. I know what I want and I know what I do not want. More importantly, I know what I deserve and I refuse to settle. I believe that women should not look for a man because the right man will find her.

I am Beyond Measure.

Love Life. Peace.

I CUT MY HAIR!!!!

2008-11-16T23:00:00.003-06:00

I cut my hair.....the day after Obama won the election....i was inspired (in all aspects)....there is so many things that have inspired me lately...in the world..and in my private life....and I feel like a new woman.

Artist Spotlight- Rachel Crouch

2008-11-16T21:01:00.004-06:00

I was on my laptop....listening to music, browsing the internet.....which is my usual when I am about to write a new poem...or just write something to express my new found inspiration. I was on the Centsless blog(look to the right...I follow them. kewl-ish) when I saw this dope artwork......by such a seemingly amazing person. I do not know her personally but after seeing more of her work.....and her website. She is truly dope.

She is Rachel Crouch.

http://www.rachelcrouch.com/

Nightcap: Beyonce Does Oprah Chris

2008-11-16T14:49:00.001-06:00

Nightcap: Beyonce Does Oprah+Chris & Rih Rih Get Personal | Young, Black, and Fabulous :: Our President Has More Swagger Than Yours.

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Thank You

2008-11-05T11:12:00.004-06:00

Boundaries broken.

Possibilities endless.

Love has even taken a whole new meaning for me.

Thank You.

Inspiration.

Intrigue.

Enlightened.

Thank You.

A voice to be heard.

A heart to be given.

A hand to help.

Thank You.

Dreams.

Bigger Dreams.

No longer dreams....but definite possibilities.

Thank you.

Smiles.

Tears.

Happiness.

Thank You.

Thank you Fredrick.

Thank you Martin.

Thank you Malcolm.

Thank you to all our leaders of the past, present, and future.

Thank you God.

I am limitless.

By Me. Spoken/written this morning.
Love Life. Peace.

My President!!!!

2008-11-05T10:01:00.003-06:00

Happy. Excited. Inspired. In Love. Proud. Special. I don't know how to describe how and what I feel right now. These words cannot fully explain the depth of my emotions right now. We did it......young people, we believed and we did it. Barack Obama is a true inspiration...and we are too. We showed that the people's voice counts!! I cannot help but think about our past heroes, our past teachers, our loved ones in heaven......i know they are smiling up above. I knew that this moment would happen....but the actual moment was so overwhelming. I broke down. My tears expressed what my mouth could not. I am happy. It is a happiness no one can take from me. I wish my lil brother was here to see this......so he can see that its not just wishful thinking....or an impossible dream but yet it is possible and it has been achieved!!! I know he is with God watching. Let us continue to stand by our president...lets keep rooting for him!!! He will still need our continued support......Barack Obama is the Man!!!! Loves It!!!

"Characteristics of True Spirituality"

2008-10-27T11:41:00.003-05:00

Micah: "Characteristics of True Spirituality"

Micah 6: 6-9

Sermon by Dr. Leslie W. Smith

" With what shall I come before the Lord and bow down before the exalted God? Shall I come before him with burnt offerings, with calves a year old? Will the Lord be pleased with thousands of rams, with ten thousand rivers of oil? Shall I offer my firstborn for my transgression, the fruit of my body for the sin of my soul? He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God."

DO JUSTICE; WHAT IS RIGHT BECAUSE IT IS RIGHT
LOVE MERCY/KINDNESS; MINISTER TO THOSE WHO ARE MISERABLE
GENUINE REVERENCE FOR GOD; RESPECT HIS PEOPLE

You cannot separate true spirituality from the need to help those who are disadvantaged.

In order to be spiritual, you must have a caring quality. To be rightly related to God's demands, you must be rightly related to God's people.

Walk in the light and spirit to rid yourself of selfishness!!

You CANNOT care more about idols than God.....You CANNOT worship what others have more than God.

Fallen people are not spiritual because fallen people care about themselves only.

RIGHT V. LEGAL

Just because something is legal does not necessarily mean it is right!!!

One thing that peeked my interest about that statement and something that was mentioned in church was foreclosure....in the bible, God never wanted anyone to lose their property...however, in the legal sense its okay to sell someone else property when they can no longer pay.....is that justification though? would these people truly lose their homes if we weren't allowed to sell them. I know that people get the best deals through foreclosures sometimes....but how would you feel if it was you losing that home, or a family member? I don't think I could feel good about myself if I had taken or bought someone else's home....what do you think?

Right is right...Legal is legal...Not the same.

Love Life. Peace.

Desire, Thirst, Hunger

2008-10-27T11:10:00.002-05:00

I went to a women's revival on saturday and Mt. Creek Baptist Church in Duncanville, TX and I am just going to share some of the things we talked about....Enjoy!

HUNGER= strong desire/ thirst

We must have a hunger for the word of God and for a relationship with God. There are things we must do and know in order to accomplish this:

SEEK GOD!!!

"My heart says of you, 'Seek his face!' Your face, Lord, I will seek." -Psalms 27:8

*******All you need is prayer and meditation to seek God********

"I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." - Galatians 2:20

Be honest with God.
God knows your heart.
God will not condemn you; He looks at your heart and your desire for Him.

DO NOT MAKE EXCUSES; LOVE AND FORGIVE

One thing that I think we as people battle with everyday is the FLESH. I understand this battle and the only way to conquer it is through the Word of God and a strong desire to do what is right by Christ.

DO NOT LET THE FLESH TAKE OVER!!!

Flesh will have you do things you shouldn't do
Psalms 1: 2 Enlighten yourself in the law of the Lord
James 4:8 Let God close to you
2 Corinthians 6:17 Come away from the unclean
1 Corinthians 6:26 Glorify God in body and spirit

Remember....

the light of Christ should shine within us

I John 2:15 ---Do not love the world (this confuses people....and from my understanding and teaching, it is telling us to no give in to worldly things..ie money, clothes, sex, drugs, ignorance.....anything that is not godly.)

Be of Him and not of the World!!!

AND WOMEN......you should want a man that does not love the world but loves the Word.

Be a BOLD SISTAH IN CHRIST!!

LOVE LIFE. PEACE.

"Don't Be Like Jonah"

2008-10-20T12:06:00.003-05:00

Jonah: "Don't Be Like Jonah"

Jonah 4: 1-11

Sermon by Dr. Leslie W Smith (My Pastor/Teacher)

Jonah: First 3 Chapters
Chapter 1: Jonah rebelling and God reproving
Chapter 2: Jonah remembering and God redeeming
Chapter 3: Nineveh repenting and God relenting

The book of Jonah demonstrates that God loves lost people...all lost people.

Lessons:

Embrace differences
God will never give you more pain than he has given you strength to handle
God's love has no boundaries
God's worldwide purpose will be accomplished with us or in spite of us

Remember that God can take away your bad stigmas....no matter what mistakes you have made, God forgives you....your consequences remain, but God will take away the bad and make you holy.

Compassion: Love with legs

you cannot love someone that you are not there for.....

don't know what you missing because you are missing it.....

you are at your best, when you are one....

Gen. 2:18 "The Lord God said, 'It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.'"--------man cannot be all I have called you to be by yourself.

Partial Obedience = Disobedience

Step Away from God and every step you take goes Down!

Walk By Faith

Love Life. Peace.

Words from the Greatest.....Tupac Shakur

2008-10-13T23:35:00.003-05:00

I've been reading, re-reading alot of books that inspire me and one of them is The Rose That Grew From Concrete....a book of Tupac's poems. I would like to share some of my favorites....here goes.

SOMETIMES I CRY

Sometimes when I'm alone
I cry because I'm on my own
The tears I cry R bitter and warm
They flow with life but take no form
I cry because my heart is torn
and I find it difficult 2 carry on
If I had an ear 2 confide in
I would cry among my treasured friends
But who do u know that stops that long
to help another carry on
The world moves fast and it would rather pass u by
than 2 stop and c what makes u cry
It's painful and sad and sometimes I cry
and no ones cares about why.

THE FEAR IN THE HEART OF MAN

against an attacker I will boldly take my stand
because my heart will show fear 4 no man
but 4 a broken heart I run with fright
scared to be blind in a vulnerable night
I believe this fear is in every man
some will acknowledge it others will fail 2 understand
there is no fear in a shallow heart
because shallow hearts don't fall apart
but feeling hearts that truly care
are fragile 2 the flow of air
and if I am 2 be true then I must give
my fragile heart
I may receive great joy or u may return it
ripped apart

GOD

when I was alone and had nothing
I asked 4 a friend 2 help me bear the
pain no one came except...GOD

when I needed a breath 2 rise
from my sleep no one could
help me except...GOD

when all I saw was sadness
and I needed answers no one
heard me except...GOD

so when I am asked who I
give my unconditional love 2
look for no other name
except...GOD!

NOTHING CAN COME BETWEEN US

let's not talk of money
let us forget the world
4 a moment let's just revel
in our eternal comradery
in my Heart I know
there will never be a day
that I don't remember
the times we shared
u were a friend
when I was at my lowest
and being a friend 2 me
was not easy or fashionable
regardless of how popular
I become u remain
my unconditional friend
unconditional in its truest sense
did u think I would forget
did u 4 one moment dream
that I would ignore u
if so remember this from here 2 forever
nothing can come between us

MY DEAREST ONE!!

There R no words 2 express
how much I truly care
So many times I fantasize of
feelings we can share
My heart has never known
the Joy u bring 2 me
As if GOD knew what i wanted
and made u a reality
I'd die 2 hold u or 2 kiss u
or merely 2 see your face
my stomach quivers my body shivers
and my heart increases pace
2 give me $ or lots of gold
would not me the same 2 me
I prayed and watched the distant start
and finally u came 2 me!

THINGS THAT MAKE HEARTS BREAK

pretty smiles
deceiving laughs
and people who dream with their eyes open
lonely children
unanswered cries
and souls who have given up hoping
The other thing that breaks hearts
R fairy tales that never come true
and selfish people who lie 2 me
selfish people just like u

BLACK WOMAN

The day I met u I saw strength
and I knew from that point on
that u were pure woman 2 me
possessing a spirit that was strong

I want smiles 2 replace the sorrow
that u have encountered in the past
and since it was strength that attracted me 2 u
it will take strength 2 make it last

My negative side will attempt 2 change u
but please fight that will your all
it will be your strength that keep us both standing
while others around us fall

FOREVER AND TODAY

U say that u'll love me forever but what about today
As the dusks become dawns and the years pass on will u
love me the same way
if so let us rejoice and bathe in constant pleasure
if not spare my heart today and i shall recover before
forever
And if my doubts and ?'s upset u, forgive my fragile heart
I just wanted 2 know if you'd love me forever
before today would start!

WHY MUST U BE UNFAITHFUL

MEN!
u shouldn't listen 2 your selfish heart
It doesn't really have a brain
Besides keeping u alive
Its existence is in vain
"How could I be so mean,
and say your heart has no place?"
Because mortal men fall in love again
as fast as they change their face
I may be cruel, but think awhile about
The hearts that u have broken
Match that with the empty vows
and broken promises u've spoken
I am not saying females R perfect
Because men we know it's not true
But why must u be unfaithful
If her heart is true 2 u!!!!

All Written by Tupac Shakur

There are many more poems by him....if you've never read the book...please go buy it asap..Also, I would suggest Tupac Shakur Legacy...its really nice and also inspirational and very informative.

Love In Between Love....My Playlists

2008-10-13T15:17:00.000-05:00

"1. Simply Beautiful - Al Green
2. I'm Still In Love With You - Al Green
3. Can't Let Go - Anthony Hamilton
4. Come Close - Common
5. Are We In This Together - Day26
6. Cracks Of My Broken Heart (Album Version) -
7. Hey You - Floetry
8. Sometimes U Make Me Smile - Floetry
9. The Makings Of You (from the original mothin picture soundtrack written and produced by Curtis Mayfield) - Gladys Knight
10. Love You More - Ginuwine
11. Lions, Tigers & Bears - Jazmine Sullivan
12. So High - John Legend
13. Submerge: Til We Become The Sun - Maxwell
14. Whenever Wherever Whatever - Maxwell
15. Love - Musiq (Soulchild)
16. Takeyouthere - Musiq (Soulchild)
17. Why Does She Stay - Ne-Yo
18. Here I Stand - Usher
19. And I Love Her - Victor Fields"

"Am I My Brother's Keeper"

2008-10-05T22:57:00.001-05:00

Am I My Brother's Keeper?

Obadiah 1: 1-21

Sermon by Dr. Leslie Smith

Obadiah is about the perpetual conflict between Edom and Israel.
True Question: Do I give up serving myself to serve others?

The conflict of Edom and Israel starts in the book of Genesis with the sibling rivalry of Esau and Jacob.

Gen 25: 29-34 (Esau's disdain)
Gen 27: 18-29 (Jacob's disception)
Herod, desc. of Esau
Jesus Christ, desc. of Jacob

Jacob = Israel

Refer to:

Numbers 20
I Chronicles 1:35
Exodus 17: 8-15

God hates pride.

Pride goes before destruction.

Reasons to Serve Others:

All in the same family. God is our father.
Fulfilling the greatest commandment---love thy neighbor as thy self
True believer--sign of commitment

I Will

2008-10-05T22:46:00.002-05:00

I Will...

understand that all true strength comes from God
have the strength to be kind, compassionate, and faithful
choose to live in God's strength by faith
stand for what I believe even when I face resistance
work with my natural strengths, offering my gifts and talents for the greater good of all
remember that being a servant reflects the hidden strength of God's love
understand that when I am weak, God can be strong for me

STATE OF EMERGENCY

2008-10-04T00:48:00.001-05:00

Dear Young America,

WE ARE IN A STATE OF EMERGENCY!!! YOU MUST REGISTER TO VOTE BY MONDAY OCTOBER 6, 2008!!!!! We are only 31 days from the most important election of our lifetime. MONDAY OCTOBER 6, 2008 IS THE DEADLINE. We are at war, banks are closing, people are losing their jobs and houses every day. It is our responsibility to protect our futures. Time is running out. You must register by Monday October 6th. Barack Obama cannot win this election on his own; he needs our help. This election is about us. This election is about our children’s future. If you have not registered to vote, you are disrespecting everyone that sacrificed their lives for you to have this right. You are also disrespecting your future.

The time is NOW for us to use the voices with which God has blessed us. We need you to do all you can. Here is what we need to do:

1. Register to vote BY MONDAY, OCTOBER 6th 2008
2. Get as many people as you can to register with you
3. Go to the poll and vote on November 4th

Barack Obama said it best, “Eight is Enough.” No longer will we stand by and follow leadership with no regard for us and no accountability to us.

We can be the deciding factor in this election, but you must register to vote to make your voice heard. Who are we? We are young America. This is our moment of truth. Are you registered for change? October 6th is only a few days away.

Make sure that on November 4th, we are able to say that we did everything in our power to make sure that Barack Obama becomes the next President of the United States. We owe this to our children, our parents, our grandparents and ourselves. We need you to become a part of Team Obama. This is the most important election in our lifetime. REGISTER TO VOTE BY MONDAY OCTOBER 6th and VOTE TO MAKE HISTORY ON NOVEMBER 4th!!!!

Visit www.VoteForChange.com to register to vote TODAY

It is our duty to make our voices heard. STOP what you’re doing right now and lets REGISTER TO VOTE. Time is running out!!!!!!!!!

God Bless,

Sean “Diddy” Combs
Shawn “Jay-Z” Carter
Mary J. Blige
Kevin Liles

Feelin' Good, Feelin' Great...

2008-09-29T13:44:00.002-05:00

Wishing everyone a great week and weekend....make sure everyone you know and don't know is registered to VOTE!!! Keep God in ya' life and Keep the Faith!! Smooches...the one and only.

Love Life. Peace.

Trust/Love

2008-09-28T23:52:00.002-05:00

"If someone chooses to give you their love, with the exclusion of everyone else, that is a trust that should not be broken." - Dr. Leslie W. Smith (My Pastor :-))

Speaks 4 Itself....

Goodnight.

Love Life. Peace.

"When Birds Come Home to Roost"

2008-09-28T23:02:00.003-05:00

Today, my pastor, Dr. Leslie W. Smith, taught from the Book of Amos. The Book of Amos is one of the books of the minor prophets.

Amos 8:11-14
" 'The days are coming,' declares the Sovereign Lord, 'when I will send a famine through the land- not a famine of food or a thirst for water, but a famine of hearing the words of the Lord.' Men will stagger from sea to sea and wander from north to east, searching for the word of the Lord, but they will not find it."

Theme: God hates evil because of His holiness; cannot let it go unpunished

EXTERNAL VIEW DOES NOT EQUAL THE INTERNAL REALITY

Comparison of North Israel with America Today

Both have external prosperity and power
Both have internal corruption

SINS

Greed
Neglect of His Word
False Worship
Corrupt Leadership
Oppression of the poor

America is the most prosperous nation and it has people/citizens without healthcare!!!!

In Chapter 3, we see that the Lord tried to spare Israel, but they deserved their punishment. In the beginning of Chapter 8, you see the reason for their punishment. And after in Chapter 9, you read about their restoration.

He is coming and you need to be ready. Live your life for Him.

The only thing to save our nation is 2 Chronicles 7:14

"if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land."

Love Life. Peace.

Amen.

OBAMA V. MCCAIN - PRESIDENTIAL DEBATE 2008

2008-09-27T08:45:00.005-05:00

After watching the presidential debate, it is very clear that McCain isn't going to change much, if anything, about the state of the United States of America. This is my opinion and it is what I got out of the debate. In my opinion, in order to start the "digging out" process and changing America so that we can see progress and growth after a disastrous eight years, we need to start with the people. The people are struggling.....gas is high, food is high, and healthcare is out of control. Middle-income families are suffering heavily and low-income families are just not making it....we need to help them because they are important to the economy and without them big businesses will fail. So instead of bailing out companies who have already shown untrustworthy with finances....lets bail out the American people. Let's give them a break. Let's put money toward programs that are necessary for the future of this country and the future of our youth. I think, as Obama said as well, we need to recognize our long-term goals and make sure that our short-term plans are going to support them.

Bottom-Line: We need CHANGE....and that's why BARACK OBAMA IS THE HIM FOR ME.

State of Mind

2008-09-26T09:16:00.001-05:00

Time.

Two years.

Two months.

Two days.

Today.

I've given so much of me

So maybe time is what it needs to be

Love takes time

So take it.

Written By Me. Yesterday. :-)

Inner Power- Strength From God

2008-09-26T08:21:00.003-05:00

What is Strength?

Here are some definitions from the dictionary:

the quality or state of being strong; bodily or muscular power; vigor.
mental power, force, or vigor.
moral power, firmness, or courage.
power of resisting force, strain, wear, etc.
vigor of action, language, feeling, etc.
something or someone that gives one strength or is a source of power or encouragement; sustenance

Woman of strength.....found in the Bible we have...Esther, Deborah, Phoebe, Sarah, and Mary.

They had inner strength that came from their relationship with God. Strength comes from God...you are only weak when you do not look to God.

"Being powerful is like being a lady. If you have to tell people you are, you aren't." - Margaret Thatcher

Quiet Strength = knowing who you are in God; it is a gentle power that grows from strength of character, wisdom, and purpose

Honor your body: Maintain physical strength and fitness
Honor your heart: Stand by your beliefs and never give up when times get tough
Honor your relationship with God: Use your gifts/abilities to make a better world for your family and community

"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." - Isaiah 41:10

"I can do everything through him who gives me strength." - Philippians 4:13

"Not only so, but we rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." - Romans 5:3-5

I have learned that with God, I can conquer all and withstand all. There have been times, and there still are times when I feel truly weak or that I cannot do it, but I remember that I am not doing it alone. God is always with me.....it is through his strength that I can remain standing. I find patience in relationships where I thought I had none. I find confidence in situations I thought I would fail. I know that all this is possible because of the love of God. He is always there giving His love that give me Strength.

1) What ways could help you always remember your fight is God's fight and that you are never alone?

Love Life. Peace.

Feeling

2008-09-25T18:55:00.003-05:00

I wish I couldn't feel

Feeling---
A sensation, an emotional perception

Eyes pour rain caused by pain
Pain---
Pain is an unpleasant sensation
It is distress

Pain comes in varying degrees of severity
But pain that comes because of love
must be the highest of those degrees

Love is long
Love is not understanding
Love makes me turn right
Love makes me go left

Love reigns above all
Thats what I've always believed

I'm not so sure,

Written By Me. Sometime this summer.

Untitled....

2008-09-25T18:48:00.002-05:00

Thinking of you
Not in the past
No baby, not even in the present
I'm thinking,
I'm thinking future

Waking up to your face
Touching your lips to wipe away all pain
Believing in you---Always
Forever being your crutch when you need it
Your life partner
Your smile when you only see frowns
I plan on being your everything
Your rain is my rain
And your sun, my shine
I want to bring clarity within your clouds

I want ou to feel all the depts and I mean all
the depts of my mind, my body, and the depths of my soul

Your spirit has encompassed my soul
And I'm loving it

I can only pray that our love for each other
continues to disburse within
one another

Our love is Past
Our love is Present
Our love is Future
Our love is Forever

Written By Me. Sometime this summer.

Untitled

2008-09-25T18:42:00.002-05:00

Heart Flutters....
My back, my back-----it tingles
It tingles as it anticipates your touch

Your touch widens my mouth
My eyes twinkle as I look into your browns
My soul intertwines with yours

I yearn for this feeling to never leave
Yet I push you away
Love never felt so great

Fear creeps in my mind that this,
this greatest love might, just might slip away
However, greatest love is the greatest love, all of all
I know that your essence has become my essence and my essence has become yours

Our hearts beat for each other---as one.

Your love
My love
Our love is love

Heart Flutters...
My back, my back---it tingles
it tingles as it anticipates your touch

Your Forever Touch.

Written By Me. January 25th.

The Pain of an Embrace

2008-09-25T18:28:00.003-05:00

I am in pain
I'm trying to fight it, trying to hide it
It's unbearable
The loneliness I feel inside
My heart on the verge of shattering into pieces
The misunderstanding of my heart, my emotions
Is huge
Life sucks and sometimes I feel as if it is beyond repair
Love is what I need...
An ear is what I need....
An embrace is what I crave....
Strength is power
Powerless I am because I feel weak and
Weaker by the day, by the hour, by the minute
Loved ones have drifted away
Throughout my time, I thought the consistency of love in and love out would prepare me for an Any Love
Any kind of love that walked into my life
However, this type of love I am feeling
I never felt before
It almost feels like life or death
Win or lose
Happiness or Sadness
Is it because I never felt a love like this that it's hard to let go of its embrace even for a minute, or an hour, or a day?
I've been drenched with love and now I crave to be drenched in the embrace of love for every moment of my life.

Written By Me. Awhile Ago.

Mixed Confusion

2008-09-25T18:20:00.002-05:00

Mixing

What is it that I need?

It is Him I look to for my answer

Love.

Success.

Happiness.

Family.

Complete Happiness.

It's like it is a forever wanting.....a yearning.

This yearning, this want, this need.....it brings me to my mix

My mix of emotions......happiness, joy, love.

Sadness, Anger, Frustration.

I don't know whether I'm crying tears of happiness or sadness

I guess I'm still in a mist of confusion

My Mix of Utter Confusion.

Written By Me. Awhile Ago....but this year. :-)

The Five Senses

2008-09-25T18:18:00.001-05:00

My eyes have seen it.

My hands have felt it.

My ears have heard it uttered quietly and yelled loudly.

My nose has smelled its distinct aroma.

And my lips have tast it.....bitter and sweet.

It is Love.

A Moment...

2008-09-25T18:12:00.002-05:00

Forever
Silent gazes at night
Smiles that come from the heart
Touches that mimick the words "I am here."

Broken-hearted.
Distant.
Lost touch of what really makes a true life
Happiness is now living with loneliness.

Forever is now kept in my dreams
I have created armour stronger than ever
And it now surrounds
My heart.

I am Forever Broken-Hearted.

Written By Me. April 19th.

Painful Love

2008-09-25T18:08:00.002-05:00

Why is love so hard?

I really need you.

I want you.

I want to baste in your presence

I want to lay down, eyes closed,while you touch me in a place I never been touched

In the place that keeps me alive and wanting

I wish that you could understand the depth of my heart

The ending of my solitude is what I am longing for

Here is where I need you to be

Your love has struck me

Struck me hard

In love

So in love

Still in love

With you.

Written By Me. May 16th, 2007

Just

2008-09-25T18:03:00.003-05:00

I just want to see you smile
I just want us to share a laugh
I just want to hold your hand while we walk from
the car to the apartment door

I just want to cook dinner for you
I just want to watch the Finals with you
I just want to dance in the living room with you
I just want to walk the dog with you
I just want to hear you sing "our song"
I just want to kiss you before you fall asleep
I just want to see your face when I wake up
I just want to get dressed up and go to dinner with you
I just want to make it a blockbuster night and kick back with you
I just want to look in your eyes so you know I am here
I ust want to be the one who takes away your hurts
I just want to be where you are
I just want you.

Written By Me. June 12

Him

2008-09-25T18:01:00.001-05:00

The happiness and joy I feel inside
Comes from
Him

Him makes me feel good inside
Him takes all
the
pain
away.

When I look into Him eyes
I see myself
Him love is like a drug
I am so Addicted!

I want Him to go deep inside
And get High
on Him loving me

Damn I love me some Him
Damn I love me some You

Written By Me. Awhile ago...:-)

Blacks Inspiring Blacks

2008-09-23T18:07:00.003-05:00

Anytime I read an article or see a story about a successful black woman or man, I am inspired. I get inspired everyday by little things.....but it always brings a smile to my face when I see someone that looks like me....doing it BIG! They are always focused, determined, and intelligent....and I want to inspire others, too! So here is a list of powerful blacks in corporate america....you can also see this on www.blackenterprise.com.... Here goes(these are just a few that stuck out to me):

Charles E. Phillips, Jr.- President of Oracle Corporation and a member of the Board of Directors. He joined Oracle in 2003 and is responsible for global field operations including consulting, marketing, sales, alliances and channels, and customer programs. Prior to joining Oracle, Mr. Phillips was with Morgan Stanley & Co. Incorporated, a global investment bank. Prior to Wall Street, Mr. Phillips served as a Captain in the United States Marine Corps. Mr. Phillips holds a BS in Computer Science from the United States Air Force Academy, an MBA from Hampton University, and a JD from New York Law School. Mr. Phillips is on the boards of Jazz at Lincoln Center in New York City, The American Museum of Natural History, New York Law School, Viacom Inc., and Morgan Stanley.

Ann M. Fudge - Chairman and CEO of Young & Rubicam Brands. She also serves as chairman and CEO of its largest division, Y&R Advertising. Y&R Companies also include Burson-Marsteller (public relations / public affairs), Wunderman (direct and database marketing), Landor Associates (brand consulting and creative design), and Sudler & Hennessey (healthcare communications), among others. Prior to Young & Rubicam, she served as president, Beverages, Desserts and Post Division—a $5 billion unit of Kraft Foods. She served on Kraft's management committee and managed many businesses including Maxwell House Coffee, Kool Aid, Crystal Light, Post cereals, Jell-O desserts and Altoids. Before joining General Foods, she spent nine years at General Mills, Inc. Ms. Fudge serves on the Board of Directors of General Electric. She also serves on the Board of Governors of the Boys and Girls Club of America, the Board of Directors of Catalyst, and is a trustee of the Brookings Institution. She is a member of The Committee of 200 and The Council on Foreign Relations. Among her honors are leadership awards from the Minneapolis and New York City YWCA, the 1998 Alumni Achievement Award from Harvard Business School and the 2000 Achievement Award from the Executive Leadership Council. She has been named by FORTUNE as one of the 50 most powerful women in American business. Ms. Fudge received her BA from Simmons College and her MBA from Harvard University Graduate School of Business.

William Lamar, Jr. - Lamar is responsible for all U.S. marketing efforts of this $17 billion fast-food company, the largest in the world. McDonald's has 13,000 restaurants in the United States alone. When Lamar served as general manager and regional vice president for McDonalds' Atlanta Region, he was responsible for more than 700 restaurants in Georgia, Alabama, South Carolina, and portions of North Carolina and Tennessee. Over the past few years, Lamar has helped build up the flagging franchise. Just two years ago, consumers old and young were shunning staples such as Big Macs and Happy Meals. But due in large part to Lamar's innovative marketing strategy and campaigns to target different market segments, systemwide sales were up 7% through November 2004. The company posted double-digit same- store sales increases for two consecutive year-over-year periods.

Black Folks!!!----We Must Start Saving!!!

2008-09-07T10:41:00.002-05:00

Learn From The Past:

As a young black woman, I am learning the importance of saving for the future. It is imperative that we learn the importance of saving and investing in our future. I say this, because it has been a constant learning experience for me. In my opinion, the best way to save is to set up an automatic draft from your checking account to a savings account. You will see you money start to build and it will become a habit. You never know what emergencies may arise in the future or if you may lose your job.

Forget about short-term pleasure and focus on long-term satisfaction......

Click on the title for an informative article about saving from Black Enterprise.

Picture Perfect: Beyonce Covers Marie Claire

2008-09-07T10:31:00.001-05:00

Picture Perfect: Beyonce Covers Marie Claire

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New Music: Ne-Yo - Say It

2008-09-07T10:29:00.002-05:00

This is definitely on playlist. Matter fact, its the only one playing.....over and over again.

This is for US....

New Music: Ne-Yo - Say It

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Video: Ryan Leslie - Addiction (Feat. Cassie

2008-09-07T10:28:00.002-05:00

Hey check this video out over at www.upscaleswagger.com I must say, "I like it!"

Video: Ryan Leslie - Addiction (Feat. Cassie & Fabolous)

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I'm Really Feeling......

2008-09-07T10:05:00.003-05:00

Estelle
Teyana Taylor
Solange

Fashion-Forward. CHECK. Fresh. CHECK. Music that moves you. CHECK!!! I am loving these young women...something Fierce!!! They keep me wanting more and keep my inspiration cup filled!!

It

2008-08-24T10:50:00.005-05:00

I think its time for my journey to end
Some may say its too early
But before my heart is beyond repair
I think its time to hang'em up

It was something I thought I could reach
Out and touch, grab, and never let go
My heart spoke it, before my mind though it.
Now I know it, it was my imagination
Running freely with endless hope

It is temporary
It is never faithful
It is only a feeling
And I have signed the dotted line, promosing to never let it take over my mind.

It is love and
I can do without.

My endless journey has ended.

Written by Me. August 24th

Should I Stay or Leave?

2008-08-23T22:51:00.002-05:00

So Confused......I am not sure if the "good" outweighs the "bad" anymore...

Until

2008-06-27T07:33:00.001-05:00

37 Days until our love touches again.....

Until

2008-06-19T21:57:00.002-05:00

51 Days til our love touches again.......

New New

2008-06-12T23:05:00.004-05:00

Realization alway happens a little too late. Its only after they're gone do you realize that they really weren't asking too much, or that now is what matters most because later is not guaranteed. What you immaturely lose, someone will gain and recognize that what they have just received is like no other. So what you write off as a "no big deal", will continuously lead her away until she writes you off- completely. What you won't do, the next will. When you rather do this and do that, someone else rather do that and this with me. Love becomes Love Lost.

Guaranteed:

There will always be a big new movie
There will always be NBA Finals every year whether you are here or not
The mall will be there the next day and the day after
Your favorite show will rerun again at some point in time
Dominoes, Spades, Etc. can be played almost anytime and anywhere
you get my drift.......

Not Guaranteed:

You being here another day
Your loved ones being here another day

Faithful

2008-06-12T22:13:00.003-05:00

* you are always being tested by God
* everyday is an important day, and every second is a growth opportunity to deepen your character, to demonstrate love, or to depend on God

"Those who are trusted with something valuable must show they are worth of that trust."
- I Corinthians 4:2

"Unless you are faithful in small matters, you won't be faithful in larger ones."
- Luke 16:10

I try to remember this everyday, but I admit its a daily struggle. Its a struggle in my personal relationships the most.....and I am currently in battle. I think sometimes people have a notion that they are "entitled" to certain things even when they mess up. I believe when people think like this, their apologies are not sincere and their weak efforts show they don't truly want to change and better themselves or that they truly care.

Eternity

2008-06-12T21:55:00.002-05:00

"God has....planted eternity in the human heart." - Ecclesiastes 3:11

* the closer you live to God, the smaller everything else appears

* there is more to live than just here and now

"God's plan endure forever; his purposes last eternally" - Psalm 33:11

Questions

2008-06-12T21:08:00.003-05:00

Why do people choose to "express", to "show", to "recognize" love when it slips away---when it becomes too late? When disappointment becomes familiar, does that mean it is time to leave love? Why does it take men so long to recognize that "she" is his queen? Isn't it amazing that sadness, happiness, frustration, and joy can be encompassed all in a moment? Why can't we fly like a bird or butterfly? Why is love so hard? Why is love so easy? Why is it so hard to walk away? Why do people hurt the ones they love? Why do tears flow when you are happy and when you are sad? Why is it that we let sadness overpower our happiness? Why do we degrade each other? Is it really true that "life can only get better" or is that something we say to comfort ourselves?

Can we, you and I, really get it together? Will you stay true? Will you fulfill all my fantasies of what true love is and how it feels? And after you do this, will you let me love you and take you far into ecstasy forever?

Coming Soon!!

2008-06-04T01:05:00.001-05:00

It's been awhile....I have alot to say...alot is on my mind...the depths of my mind...coming soon

Favorite Time of the Year!!!

2008-05-07T00:45:00.001-05:00

SPRINGTIME

Feelin' Pretty in Purple!!

2008-05-06T22:55:00.001-05:00

The Love of My Life

2008-05-06T17:10:00.001-05:00

THE LOVE OF MY LIFE

MY JONATHAN

I love him more than anything

He was my special little man—and still is.

When he smiled, I smiled.

When he laughed, I laughed.

When he was sad, I was sad.

He gave me hugs and kisses that made me feel as if nothing else mattered.

And in my eyes, nothing else did.

We had an esoteric bond and that bond will live on forever.

Even at ten, he still liked hanging with his much older sister and I was allowed all the hugs and kisses I wanted.

I treasure the times I had lunch with him at school and the times I picked him up and he told me all about his day.

He was so full of life and he made my life so much happier.

When I was down, Jonathan could put a smile on my face effortlessly.

Just to hear the sound of his voice was all I needed.

I will miss lying down with him.

I will miss watching movies with him.

I will miss watching him dance in the kitchen.

I will miss watching him play basketball.

I will miss him playing video games.

I will miss him beating me in basketball and video games.

I will miss him running around in his pajamas in the morning.

I will miss him tremendously.

I will miss every single thing about him.

I just hope that while I am still here on earth, I can bring as much happiness to someone as Jonathan brought to my family and me.

Jonathan is a one of a kind.

He completes our family.

He completes me and I will never feel that way again until I am with him once more.

R.I.P.

1997-2007

By Me aka Big Sissy bka Aggy.

WOMAN/LOVE

2008-05-06T17:05:00.002-05:00

“Woman was taken out of man; not out of his head to top him, nor out of his feet to be trampled underfoot; but out of his side to be equal to him, under his arm to be protected, and near his heart to be loved”

“God made woman beautiful and foolish; beautiful, that man might love her; and foolish, that she might love him”

“The woman who appeals to a man's vanity may stimulate him, the woman who appeals to his heart may attract him, but it is the woman who appeals to his imagination who gets him”

“The expression a woman wears on her face is far more important than the clothes she wears on her back”

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"If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love.
Open your heart & eyes to the little things...
Let yourself fall in love."

"Love is as much of an object as it is an obsession. Everyone wants it, seeks it but few ever achieve it and those who do will cherish it and be lost in it and among all, never.....never forget it."

"Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals."

MY ATTITUDE

2008-05-06T17:03:00.000-05:00

I Promise Myself—

To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind

To talk health, happiness and prosperity to every person I meet

To make all my friends feel that there is something in them

To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true

To think only of the best, to work only for the best and expect only for the best

To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as I am about my own

To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future

To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and give every living creature I meet a smile

To give so much time to the improvement of myself that I have no time to criticize others

To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble

My Attitude…..is my life.

Unknown by the Unknown.....Just Dope Honesty.

2008-05-06T16:56:00.001-05:00

If you look inside a girl's heart
You'd see how much she really cries
You'll find hidden secrets, best friends, and lies
But what you'll see the most
Is how hard it is to stay strong
When nothing's right, and everything is wrong

Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow - we must fail in order to know.
Sometimes our vision clears only after our eyes are washed away with tears.

Everyone's going to hurt you sooner or later you
just have to decide who's worth going through the pain

Everyone says to give up on you, but they don't see you like I do.
you're the one who broke my heart, you're the reason my world fell apart
you're the one who made me cry, yet I still love you and I don't know why

Jan. 15th 2006

2008-05-06T16:43:00.002-05:00

I am really sad and I really do not know why. I guess its just a lot of things leading up to sadness. I have made so many mistakes that I wish I could just go back and redo. There are no do-overs in life. I need to move on and do better. I just need help on starting a new life….a new person. My mom... I really want to make her happy proud. She is the smartest and most beautiful person I know. I just want exhibit the same qualities she has. I need strength and I am slowing gaining it. I love her so much and I really need to hear her voice. Hearing her voice and being near her makes me happy. She makes me happy. I have been searching for what it is on earth I am here to do. The only thing I have is my family and God and my friends. I want to succeed in school…for my mother, my family, and myself. I want to take steps to make my life fulfilling. I want to do well in school, I want to follow my dreams, I want to be there for my family when they need me, and I want to be content and happy with my life. I set goals to help me make my life better. I am going to follow my dreams and accomplish my goals in order to learn dedication. I know that I must follow my ambition so I can be happy.

“They go from strength to strength; each one appears before God in Zion.” -Psalm 84:7

Inner strength comes from your relationship with God. The Bible shows that all God’s people are strong—and that all God’s people are weak. You are strong in His strength and weak when you try to do everything in your own strength. Real strength does not ignore your weakness as a human being. God accepts you as you are, a mixture of strong and weak. You can be a woman of strength in God.

“Being powerful is like being a lady. If you have to tell people you are, you aren’t.”

–Margaret Thatcher

You can have quiet strength that comes from knowing who you are in God. It is a gentle power that grows from strength of character, wisdom, and purpose.

I Will….

Understand that all true strength comes from God
Have the strength to be kind, compassionate, and faithful
Choose to live in God’s strength by faith
Stand for what I believe even when I face resistance
Work with my natural strengths, offering my gifts and talents for the greater good of all
Remember that being a servant reflects the hidden strength of God’s love
Understand that when I am weak, God can be strong for me

“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” -Philippians 4:13

“Endurance develops strength of character in us.” -Romans 5:4

Wow!!! This is something I wrote over two years ago. I can gladly say that I am strong and that I have went through and I am still going through somethings that are painful....But above all, I am Here. I am still Here. And I love it!!!

Love!!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-06T16:40:00.000-05:00

"There is no way to love, love is the way."

-Thich Nhat Hanh

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perserves........and how these three remain: faith, hope, and love...but the greatest of these is love"

-I Corinthians 13: 4-13

I Thought..

2008-05-06T16:27:00.001-05:00

You loved me
You respected me
And was mine forever
Oh, so I thought!

Said you wanted me
And would love every inch
Of me---And you did.
Oh, so I thought!

Said I was yours
And I was.
Oh, so I thought!

I was yours and you
Were mines

Until
I saw you were hers, hers, and
Hers
Oh, so I thought!

Damn---Oh, so i thought!

By Me.

Success

2008-05-06T16:23:00.000-05:00

Success

To laugh often and much;

To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children;

To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends;

To appreciate beauty,

To find the best in others,

To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition;

To know even one life has breather easier because of you have lived.

This is to have succeeded.

By Ralph Waldo Emerson

Resentment/Forgiveness

2008-05-06T12:29:00.002-05:00

" To worry yourself to death with resentment would be a foolish, senseless thing to do."
- Job 5:2

Those who have hurt you in the past cannot continue to hurt you unless you hold on to pain through resentment.

I have learned that holding on to pain is only detrimental to yourself. You have to forgive and move on in order to better yourself and to see life's true beauty.

Had To Do It.....

2008-05-06T12:18:00.003-05:00

Please just take in the how FABULOUS this dress is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!